Some days it's like I have everything
figured out. I know what I want out of life and where I think I'm
headed. Then other days everything comes crashing down and I realize
I have no clue what I want or where I'm going. No one does really.
Well God knows. Seems that more and more of my friends are telling me
that they have no clue where their lives are going or what they are
doing with their lives. Which makes me feel a little relieved in some
ways and scared in others. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in
this lost confused place that I find myself in but scary to think
that the majority of the people my age are wandering around as
aimlessly as me, what does this mean for our futures? I try to trust
in God and let Him guide my life and I know that He knows where my
future is going but it's hard to stay close to God and concentrate on
everything else in life too. I know the devil knows this and uses it
to his advantage. He wants us all to get distracted so our shield of
faith isn't strong enough to withstand his attacks and we fall. It's
also hard when everyone around you seems to be doing whatever they
want and not walking with God. You want to hang out with them and be
apart of the I'll do whatever I want group but on the other hand you
feel guilty for not living the way that you think you ought to. Then
there are the people that you think have it all together. The people
that from the outside look like they have no sin in their lives at
all. The people that you would classify as the perfect Christians.
Well newsflash there is no such thing. It's really hard when you see
these people that you think are perfect and you find out that they
are just as screwed up as you are. It makes you think is there no
hope for the human race? Is it not possible for us to be good? And
then the realization arises that of course we can't be good, not all
the time at least. If we could then why would we need a savior? Why
would we have needed Jesus to die for us if we could do it on our
own? We can't. To be a Christian does mean to be Christ-like.
Although we should strive to be like Him there's no way we can be
Him. If we could be exactly like Him then we would already be
blameless and wouldn't need the ultimate sacrifice to restore our
relationship with the Father. All we can really do is to concentrate
on our personal walks and pray for those around us. Live and let
live.
