Sometimes I just feel like being alone.
I know at these times I may come off as being anti-social but that's
really not my intention. I know most of my friends are just like
“What the crap, where is Jess? Is she mad at us?” when this
happens but it really has nothing to do with them and more to do with
me just needing “me time”. I try to pack everything into my life,
church, school, all of my friends, work, homework, and I forget to
leave time for me sometimes, most of the time actually. So sometimes
I just disappear for a few days, maybe a week or two, until I feel
better. This weekend has felt like that, partly because I haven't
felt so great and partly because I've just felt overwhelmed with life
and needed some time to myself. Sometimes I like to just chill at my
house, watch TV, eat junk food and lounge around in extremely baggy
clothing. I love my friends, I actually think I have withdrawals from
them sometimes haha. I love spending time with them and hanging out
and being crazy, but when I get in this funk, or when I don't feel
good, I just want to be by myself. I get paranoid and worry and
analyze things a lot, so I worry that they think I'm mad at them or
ditching them or something. Guys (this includes girls) if you read
this, I promise I don't and I'm not. Just thought I'd rant for a few
minutes, writing usually brings my stress level down and helps me see
things in perspective. I'm like the bloom in the picture above. I'm delicate, easily broken, and alone, but I'm standing on the Rock, Jesus is my foundation. When I am weak, He is strong. <3
